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It’s the day before the last day of the world.
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Okay, so the world is not going to end tomorrow night at the stroke of midnight. This is not a Clive Barker, Richard Matheson, or Stephen King the world is ending thing. Nor is it the end of the world in real terms.
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Tomorrow is the last day of November. The end of National Novel Writing Month, a month of madness where authors, writers, aspiring hopefuls, writer wanabes, and whatever else they choose to call themselves join forces in a mass online campaign to deluge the world with newly and hastily crafted works of literary art from the atrociously bad to brilliant.
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The last few years have shown me how easy hitting that 50,000 word mark can be. After the initial years of failure, disappointment, and even abandoning all hope (and abandoning writing the NaNo novel) as early as halfway through the month, the past few years were a revelation; perhaps one that made it seem too easy.
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This year has shown me once again how hard it can be to reach the goal. A mere 1,667 words per day, made easier by the good days that allow you to slack on others, can seem so simple. And yet, it can be so out of reach that you stare forlornly at your measly 156 words you managed that day, wondering, “What the hell is wrong with me?”
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If you are like me this year, and utterly failing at NaNo, I am here to tell you that it is not you. And it is not about you, not in the sense of whether you achieve that magical number of 50,000 words.
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This year, for the first time in an absolute failure year, I did not give up. I know I cannot possibly scrape together the necessary words to meet the 50,000 goal, not without cheating and copy and pasting. (But then, who would I be cheating if I did that? Only myself.) I still plug on. Even if I only manage a sad 76 words right now. I will still write on my NaNo today, and I will still write on it tomorrow, even if tomorrow will likely give me a whopping twenty minutes to work on it. I will still post my results and validate my failure.
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Why don’t I give up?
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Why should I?
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Sometimes life has plans other than yours. Life can be busy. This year just happens to be one of those years for me where life takes control of my plans, other priorities come first, and too many priorities leave too little time for each.
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That doesn’t mean you should just give up.
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NaNoWriMo is more than just slapping a bunch of words on a page. It is about releasing your inner creativity. It is about allowing yourself to let go of your preconceptions of what a writer is and what they must do. Release yourself from what holds you back, the fear of somehow doing it wrong. Gleefully wallow in knowing that what you write does not have to be perfect. Every word does not have to be carefully plotted, formulated, or follow strict rules and guidelines. Imagine what the greatest painters in history would have accomplished if they aspired like so many writers do, to follow *the rules* of what other artists before them said was allowable art. I doubt we would have any greatest painters in history.
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It is about being real with yourself. Embrace both your strengths and your weaknesses, your doubts, your feelings of writing success. Embrace your writing limits and push them.
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It is an exercise in writing. Teaching yourself to conquer the doubts you call “writer’s block” and teaching yourself to write regularly. The more you retrain yourself to write regularly, the easier it will come. It is the exploration of your capabilities. Nothing is done well without practice. The more you write, the better you get at it.
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Post NaNo brings a new challenge.
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December first will bring with it the month of post-NaNo blues or victory celebration valedictory. Will you continue the novel to its end, or abandon it? Maybe you already finished it.
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Maybe you will go back now to do that careful plotting you were gnashing your teeth over the need for all month. Now you can return to the novel, tear it down, and rebuild it if needed. Edit it until both you and your story cry.
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Months and endless hours from now, when you have finished writing and editing until you simply cannot edit it any more, after you perhaps let it sit and then attack it again with more edits, you might declare it publish-worthy.
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If you thought National Novel Writing Month was a challenge, you are now about to face an even bigger challenge.
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Are you ready for what could be the worst streak of rejection you will ever experience in your life?
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Did you think dating as an awkward teenager was hard? Did that fear of rejection make you abandon all hope of every finding love (or at least a comfortable semblance of it)?
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You may choose the traditional publishing route. If you do, the best of luck to you. The reality is that it will probably take more luck than talent. Unless, of course, you happen to be a celebrity. But that does not mean it’s impossible.
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Smaller independent publishers will give you better odds. They don’t have the big corporate name, money, and advertising of the big publishing houses. And you may not get your book onto the shelf of the major bookstores. Your odds of having smash success sales are smaller too. But, are you looking for moderate success, or to be the next J.K. Rowling, Stephanie Meyers, Stephen King, or Dean Koontz? Be warned, though, to thoroughly research any independent press you choose to court. Research them more if they actually offer you a contract. They are not all equal. Some are more helpful, some less. Some you may find yourself locked into a contract that is not worth the paper it is printed on, your book languishing unpublished indefinitely, or as on your own in every sense as if you are self-publishing, except that you are forever waiting for them to reveal whether or not you sold a single copy. Others will prove to be fantastic publishers and allies.
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You might decide for any one of many reasons to take the self-publishing route. Here, you are on your own for everything. No one is vetting your manuscript for salability. It is up to you to make sure your manuscript is written and edited to the closest to perfection that is possible. You need to find a book cover that fits the story, and appeals to the readers. You are your own publisher, editing manager, marketing team, and everything else that goes with it. Your book will only be as good as you can make it, and that might be mediocre or marvelous.
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Rejection and obscurity. Two ugly words. All three publishing routes are filled with these two words.
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My first published novel, Where the Bodies Are, took what felt like an exceedingly long time to be published after signing a contract with an independent publisher in the U.S.
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In its first year of publication, I made enough in royalties to buy a coffee. Depending on where I bought it. The second year was worse. Now it sits in limbo, waiting to be re-released under a new publisher name, with little hope of improved sales.
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The second book, The McAllister Farm, is in pre-publishing limbo. The contract is signed, promises are made, and a book that I am told is even better than the first sits unpublished and unread with no end in sight.
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But I do not give up. I know any publisher is in it ultimately to make money. Even if they are in it for the love of literary art, they have to pay the costs associated with it. That puts authors like me, lacking in a history of selling large numbers, on the backburner behind the authors that already make them money. It isn’t personal, it’s just business.
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My newly released book Garden Grove has already had more success in the fifteen days since it was released than my first book in two years. That success is not counted in paid sales, unfortunately. It has “sold” more free coupon copies than the first book did in total sales. And even those free copies are a very small number. It is too soon to have sales numbers from most of the retail sites listing it.
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So, why do I call that a success? Simple. If nobody ever reads a single thing I wrote, not a short story or book, then how will they know if it’s any good? People have to experience a thing to love or hate it.
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Millions of writers sit in obscurity, their books not even showing up on a search. If I search either published book title, I get books by others with both similar and not even vaguely close titles. But not a sign of mine, unless I include my name in the search.
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What hope do you have of anyone reading your work, hating or loving it, if they never know it exists? Each click, like, rating, view, download, sale, and review up your chances that just one other reader might accidentally hit on your book. Each person who reads it increases your chances someone somewhere will talk about it. Word of mouth is your most powerful sales tool.
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The biggest reason I don’t give up? I don’t do it for fame and fortune. I’m a realist. I know that likely will never happen. I don’t care to make a name for myself. I write for the love of the art, for the artistic expression. I publish because art is meant to be shared. Hate it or love it (and if you don’t have a propensity to be drawn to the dark world of books, you will probably hate it), each person who reads and is moved by a story is a success.
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Where the Bodies Are is still available on Amazon while waiting for the changeover to the new publisher.
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Garden Grove is available in multiple formats on various online retailers, if you can find it in a search, including these places:
Amazon author page
Barnes and Noble
Smashwords
McNally Robinson – watch for Garden Grove to hit the bookshelf in physical form for a limited time (time dependent on sales volume)
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